Tuesday, 10 November 2009
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Breathe It In.
I'm high. From a guy. It has to be the best feeling ever. I have no idea where we're going, but he gives me butterflies and makes me tingle all over thinking about him. I keep getting shivers down my spin and my grin hasn't been this wide in a long time. And my God he turns me on. Just from kissing. I'd forgotten what this feeling is like.
Monday, 02 November 2009
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Losing Twenty Pounds In A Month?
Just a comment someone left me and my response to it as I know many other people experience the same thing:
Comment -
hey, yesterday i weighed 144 and want to get to 133. today i weigh 151. I was on a crash diet and ate normally yest - but excercised this off. why am i heavier and can i lose 20 pounds in a mth? I feel so so so fat :(
Me -
You're heavier because crash diets are absolute crap and what ever you 'lose' (which will be negligible) will come back on three times as heavy. You're heavier because your body went in to starvation mode and you've retained every single calorie you ate. You can lose twenty in a month, but it'll be incredibly hard and I doubt you'll be able to do it. First you have to stop crash dieting. It doesn't work, ever. To lose twenty in a month you'd need to lose five pounds a week, which is almost a pound a day, so it's really not that achievable, so go for something like 10 - 15. If you stretch yourself too far you won't be able to do it and will gain weight. If you went for fifteen you'd need to burn 3500 calories every two days, so 1750 a day. That's going to be a lot of time in the gym and seriously controlled eating. Work out your BMR (make sure it includes your expenditure for the day), and see how much you can eat so you get about a 900 calorie deficit. (I would not recommend eating less than 900 calories). Then make up the rest of the calories you need to burn with exercise. You won't have much time for anything else, and it'll be very hard, so I'd recommend 10lbs in a month which is very achievable and is more likely to stay off and not just be loss of muscle or water. If you're serious about weight loss you need to cut out alcohol completely, do weight training as well as cardio and drink atleast 3 litres of water a day. Make sure you spread the water out across the day and DO NOT down it in a short space of time as this can swell the brain and kill you. If you need anything else just ask, but my advice is go for ten pounds in a month.
Monday, 26 October 2009
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Colourless Colour.
I haven't lost any weight since I last posted. Rubbish! I did an hour of weights this morning, and was going to go back to the gym and do cardio this evening but I'd forgotten about Flashforward being on tonight lol. I'm trying to raise my water intake, because it's OK but I could be doing better, and easy weight loss shouldn't be avoided eh? =]
Tip: Minimum of two and a half litres of water a day girls if you're aiming for weight loss. More if you work out. I'm saying this just in case anyone still doesn't know or has forgotten...! And for every caffinated or fizzy drink you have, match the size of it with water to cancel out the negative affects.
Still feeling down about the guy. He basically told me to fuck off, that he thinks I'm a bitch, he doesn't want anything to do with me, and he doesn't want to be friends with me. (That sounds really tame, but it's all I can bring myself to write. That phone call was one of the worst things I've heard in my life.) He thought something was going on between us even though we were only friends, and on Saturday night when he saw me dancing with a guy he lost it. In the space of two hours he made the decision that three years of friendship wasn't worth anything to him, and that I'm not worth even courtesy. He thinks I'm trash and treated me like it. Sunday morning he started speaking to a girl he left me for, who he told me he had deleted the number of because he wouldn't be contacting her again because he didn't want her to affect us, who's friendship means that him and I would never be romantically involved anyway, and told me he wants her in his life more than me. It took him about ten hours to destroy everything we had.Their friendship/fling lasted for about three months. I had three years. And I'm the worthless one. Shit I'm crying again....
Friday, 23 October 2009
Tuesday, 20 October 2009
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... Grr?
Pissed off at the world.
Had an argument with my mum.
I hate my father and got angry just from being in the same room as him. It's physically and mental repulsion.
Got left on my own in the street by the guy (who I've been on and off with for three years - we're off at the moment) on Saturday night, and he went off with a girl who was in love with him who I hate to punish me for dancing with a mutual friend. He hasn't texted me to even see if I'm OK and got home, so I'm guessing they had sex or he just doesn't care about me or both. He left me in the street on my own at two in the morning to walk home. He was walking in the opposite direction to his house to walk me home, but instead he left me. And I can't get over the fact he hasn't texted me. We were suppose to be going on holiday together on Sunday.
I want to sit up and smoke twenty fags in a row and get dizzy and fuck this world.
I want to move out so I can smoke all I want and not have food shoved down my throat or be mocked about my weight by people who are over weight themselves.
I can't even take diet pills anymore because they make me sick all of the time. Not actually throwing up - which would be helpful - I just feel like it all day and become immobilsed it's so bad.
Fuck eating tomorrow.
Wednesday, 14 October 2009
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Humiliation For A Comeback?
Eek. It's been ages since I last posted. I apologies my dears, life is hectic right now. Unfortunately not thin though.
So how about some gentle humiliating comedy to shame us back in to things....?
I'm only joking we shouldn't mock people for being fat, but really, they're quite funny, and I thought quite relevant.
And I'll chuck in some real thinspo for you too, and then I'm rolling over and going to sleep.
Monday, 24 August 2009
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The Hills.
My two obsessions at the moment are The Hills and sequin dresses. Love love love them.
On The Hills, Lauren Conrad has become my idol and inspiration. I adore her style, it's very like my own, and she's not perfect or model stature so she's an attainable role model. And don't you just want her life? Ah to be a rich kid and live in L.A.....
Lauren's dress in the fifth picture down (she's on the left) is one I am seriously in love with.
Wednesday, 12 August 2009
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Fatty McFatterson.
I got very very annoyed yesterday, and ate pizza. And ice cream (even though I don't really like it). And cake. And I can't remember what else. But thank the Lord didn't gain.
However.
Today will not be the same deal.
I had two slices of left over pizza. Nachos. Mashmallows. A sausage in a roll. An apple turn over.
Fat fat fat fat.
This is what I do when I'm annoyed, mainly when annoyed about my weight or at myself. And my mum just offered me lemon curd and I know I'll have some. And I slept through my gym class this morning. And I didn't go to the gym at half four like planned. And I probably won't go this evening either. Hate myself. I'm so ridiculous.
Tip; take cod liver oil capsules. It's linked to fat burning.
Monday, 10 August 2009
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Being Stupid, I Know.
Put on two pounds in two days. Fuck it all to hell. I have sixteen days left, and fourteen pounds to lose. Fuck. I hate myself and my body and food. And you know what I really want? To sit with a pizza and eat until I make myself ill because it's much easier and tastier than getting rid of this cos it'd not working. None of it. It's fucking ridiculous. I am never going to be thin, and I'm going to be such a blob at Reading. I think I need to go Vegan, I lost loads of weight when I did that before. My mum will flip at me. But what ever. In fact I'm just going to stop eating. I'm fat. I hate fat people.
Thursday, 30 July 2009
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Hungry.
Haven't eaten yet today. I've been lucky for the last couple of days, because I've been eating crap but haven't put on weight. I'm now at 141.5, and by the 26th of August I need to be 115. Fuck it. That's 27 days... I can totally lose a pound a day lol. (I am joking btw, some people think I was being serious =] ). I need to start using weights again so that I burn more calories generally.
I have finally tidied my room which has helped my mental state, but it was worsened by the fact that my baggy jeans are now tight and the only ones I fit in.
My best mate's friend came over from Australia two years ago to stay, and he's coming over in September again, and I really don't want him to see me fat. And I don't want to be so uncomfortable all the time. And I wanted to be in a bikini by Reading festival.
I want to look like this;
Which I could if I was thin, because I'm told I look like her.
Iamgettingby
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Reasons To Be Thin...
To dance in a club you have to look good or you'll be laughed at.
Good guys don't want fat chicks.
Fat chicks can only get fat guys; I do not find that attractive.
I need to look like a dancer; 10 years and you could never tell.
Thin people can wear anything they want.
It'd be amazing to walk in to a store with out worrying if they'll have your size.
I want to be told I'm too thin; I've never been know as being thin.
Fat girls look ridiculous when exerting themselves.
Being stood there whilst my thin friends get hit on is my job at the moment; I want guys to notice me.
The thinner you are, the prettier you are.
I want to be able to layer clothes with out worrying about how much bigger I look.
You can't wear bikinis when you're fat. If you do you're disgusting and a laughing stock.
My boyfriend never would have looked at another girl if I wasn't so fat and disgusting.
Thin girls always get picked over fat ones; in uni, at work, in college...
To be considered a truly successful woman, you have to be thin. You'll get no respect other wise.
I want to be remembered as someone attractive; rather than the fat girl with the OK personality.
But most of all I want to be comfortable in my body. I want to like myself. I don't want to be ashamed of looking at my reflection any more. I need to get rid of this body for me.
